Wednesday, October 19, 2011
You changed. And thats final. I already noted every movement you do or whatever shit. You dont give a damn to me or shuhada anymore. But to my brother only. Fvck. What kind of mother are you. And you can lie to me just to get me home. You threaten me. Im studying having a late night stress yet you still doing this. If you dont want to care anymore just say so, i can get out of the house in no time. Yes im being useless to you and so all. But you've hurt me more than i hurt you. It left a big scar that my mum hates me for who am i. Thats why my sister are like that when they grow up. Now i know the reason. Its not because of what they choose, its because of you whom hurt us to the core mum. Thanks for being like this. Having this feeling hatred in me kills me. Do you know that. Hais. Up to you whar you want do. Just have to endure. I need a shoulder to cry on. Hais hais hais.
it takes a long time for me to decide; 11:16 PM.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Its all about you. You seems so careless. You dont even bother to know about me anymore. Im a child with feelings not some robot. If i am a burder to you then just say, i can go out of the house already. Well be it.
it takes a long time for me to decide; 4:34 PM.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
I know im just a humanoid that has a bad attitude. you bear with me all this years. You know what, why im like this. For all this years i dont blame you for nothing you know. For today, i just realise that im just a piece of shit to you. You needed me when youre alone. You used me. You fucking used me? Well too bad. Im just a person that dont reveal direct to your face when you did fucking things behind my back. And the worse part for today, you can even said that oh, you didnt know that i was not schooling. That was a bullshit reason you gave. Im not turning this to a big matter. What you did was not reasonable just for a dick cause. Fuck you sister. I dont want to care about you anymore. Thats why i said, the more people cared the more, you will be ignorant ass. You knew him for a few days, you texted a guy behind your guy. If he were to know, you break his heart to pieces. All guys are like that. You can ignore him, by not replying to his msges. Why cant you? Stupid. Seriously, im not gonna fuck care your life. Do what ever you want. Ass!
it takes a long time for me to decide; 4:04 PM.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Sometimes i just felt that having parent, is no used. becuse when you stayed at home doing nothing, you get scolded. Going out too often, get scolded . what's more worse things thats gonna happen is choosing your favouritism of child. It hurts deep down, you know. Not that im pointing fingers to you, but its obviously happen right in front of my eyes. And you dont tell me that because of the sickness that she suffer or whatever, you have to give more attention. Then if i were to be sick, you heck care me as if i wont die. One day, i just want a disease that kills me forever. And i wont tell you till my last breath. If i were to tell you, you wouldnt care also, so for what.
it takes a long time for me to decide; 10:52 AM.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Are we driftung apart from what im experiencing now? Or is it me that change after i enter ITE or even having a girlf as my partner? What has become of us. I dont see any communicating anymore. We are similar to strangers. We dont talk often, busy with our lifes and our personal things hanging onto us. We cant even make up a day for ourself but for others is a yes. Is it true that we gonna stay like this till down the road. I miss you much that we never talk that much anymore. Everytime when i go out with my friends i just felt bad that, i should be the one going out with you. But in the same time i need to spend time with my classmate. Haiy. Im just speechless. Like it cant be explainable. Loves <3
it takes a long time for me to decide; 10:08 PM.
Friday, August 26, 2011
Okay baby I want tell you this . For the very first time I saw you I already fell for you just that I didn't let anyone know that I liked you . I knew I could be more than just a friend with you but it was half hearted decision cause you were attached that time . But slowly I fell in love with you and started to love you even more when you started working at pasta . I still remember those times when you used to work with me at pasta . It was great and it was even great when I got to send you home everyday . But now you know what I feel that I've lost something while working in pasta without you working together with me . It feels like I'm lonely without you even though I'm with the rest . The feeling isn't the same as working with you . Hmm . I still do remember the time where we almost lost each another due to you like another girl but in the end we still made up our minds to be with each another . Next when your parents knew about us where by your mum came down to talk to me was also another incident where by we almost broke up but I know you realize my love for you and still went on with me and we're still going on . I hope no matter whatever ups and downs are still to come by we will endure it together and last long . I really don't wanna lose you in any ways . I love you so much till I can really endure whatever hurts and whenever you let me down . It's my love for you that I can endure and will endure . Like I said out of so many guys wants you I'm lucky enough to have you as my girlfriend and also as my wifey . Hees . And I don't even bother about other girls just cause my heart belongs to
You and I've lost it to you . the key of my heart is you where you lightened up my life of being single for 2years plus and I've found a caring , sweet and loving girlfriend like you . I will be beside you no matter what , example recently your problem I interfered and talked for you cause I can't see you being hurt by their words . Baby I love you and will love no matter what . I promise . Take my words . Good nights . Sugar dreams . Sleep tight . Hugs and kiss . I miss you baby and I'm not sure when ill get to see you . I'll wait for you okay . Maybe if can tomorrow meet me if can't nevermind next week then . I love you sayang .And baby one more thing I don't mind if you let me down or Hurt me I'll always forgive you . And I'm really for all my wrong doings so far . I hope you've forgiven me . Okay that's it.
My boyfriend send me.
#loveyouvehmuchy<3
You and I've lost it to you . the key of my heart is you where you lightened up my life of being single for 2years plus and I've found a caring , sweet and loving girlfriend like you . I will be beside you no matter what , example recently your problem I interfered and talked for you cause I can't see you being hurt by their words . Baby I love you and will love no matter what . I promise . Take my words . Good nights . Sugar dreams . Sleep tight . Hugs and kiss . I miss you baby and I'm not sure when ill get to see you . I'll wait for you okay . Maybe if can tomorrow meet me if can't nevermind next week then . I love you sayang .And baby one more thing I don't mind if you let me down or Hurt me I'll always forgive you . And I'm really for all my wrong doings so far . I hope you've forgiven me . Okay that's it.
My boyfriend send me.
#loveyouvehmuchy<3
it takes a long time for me to decide; 9:45 AM.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Problems have their solutions to it.
Its the matter of time to solve.
It needs understanding for both party with conflicts.
It cant be solve just a snap of finger.
Patients is needed as well.
Decision for it to solve, either we lost or we win.
Like if we were to win, we wouldnt regrer for what we dis.
We lost, thats means we have to sacrifice the unwillingness.
These are always the result of the problems we solve.
it takes a long time for me to decide; 10:05 PM.
